Nothing like another Sunday and another blog post that needs to be done, in all honesty I'm super relieved that I have yet to forget about it so hears hoping/knocking on wood that I'm not going to forget and keep cranking these bad boys out on a weekly basis! But anyhow, I'm sooo stressed out from everything going on in my life right now. My job, school work, relationship, just everything keeps piling up and when one thing goes badly everything else in my life is affected by it too.
Last Friday, as in like a week and a few days ago; not two days ago Friday, I took a math exam, being that I am not that good at math in the least and after leaving class I was extremely bummed out about not really knowing anything and already knowing that I was going to end up getting a bad grade. Well my girlfriend could tell I was upset about it and tried showing me how much she cared and was there for me but I just wasn't in the cheering up mood. So the weekend continues on and Monday rolls around and I get back my test and low and behold a shitty score, just as a I thought. Well that really spiralled me down the depression hole.
Since that day my girlfriend and I have been fighting really badly and its killing me...we've had our ups and downs but this was a really low down and its all my fault...of course after I realized what I was doing and tried to stop taking my frustration out on her as cliche as it sounds it was too late and we are at an extreme distance now. I've tried warming back up to her but she seems cold and much quieter towards me then ever which really bothers me. I guess its dumb that I should just expect her to be okay now that I am is really stupid on my part...Just wish there was more I could do but I hardly get to see her anymore through both our overwhelming schedules so its just hard.
From there work is affected because I stop sleeping when I'm super stressed so early days are made to seem even earlier and longer when your running on zero sleep. I drag through the whole day doing my routines at work physically being there but mentally being miles away from it all. So if anybody knows a secret to life so that it doesn't get overwhelming and super stressful please by all means fill me in cuz right now I most certainly need to know it!
Relationship problems are stressful..take it from me. My boyfriend and I fight just about every week and he is ALWAYS over it before I am. Guaranteed, it takes me at least two days to forget about something that he did or something we argued about. Coming from a girl, it's normal that she's keeping her distance, I do the same thing and I'm sure every girl can agree. Just give her time and space, but let her know you're sorry and you care about her more than ever. Some flowers wouldn't be a bad idea as well ;)
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